At 17, I lost the one person I truly trusted. It felt like a cold, hard blow. The world that I was once naively excited about, suddenly seemed too big and scary. I was filled with fear, sadness, and confusion. The few constants I had were precious back then, so it was like the ground beneath me giving way.
Over the years, life hit me with more tough times. It really didn't spare me its trials, but I got through them.
In the midst of my struggles, I had wins. Big ones. Bright spots in a sometimes dim journey that I held onto tightly. They stood tall, like pillars in my life. My proof that I was doing alright. But in truth, they also became my blinders. I used these wins to excuse the patterns of my thoughts, to tell myself that if I was achieving, then everything was okay. But outside success doesn't fix inside turmoil. Those pillars, strong as they were, hid the truth. There was more work to do. Inside.
Inside, old pains kept playing on repeat. My life was a loop of past memories.
An amalgamation of deep emotions, replaying like a haunting refrain, most times with me unaware, on autopilot. Those chains of old thoughts weighed me down. I was a walking brain with deeply ingrained patterns, reliving the echoes of a past self that I dragged around.
Months back, it hit me. At 35, I see how these old hurts still touch my life: I realize the profound impact of these buried traumas. I set out to do something about it. I wanted to change the tune. Radically.
I believed in change. I believed in me. And I knew others could feel this way too.
Radical thought discipline isn't a new idea, but a call. A dire call from deep within to truly live; to perceive, understand, and ultimately exist. To break free from our own chains. To tear down the walls we've unwittingly built around ourselves.
Think of a blank page. It's scary but full of potential. Every day, as I dive deeper into my mind, I feel that potential. It's like taking the first step in writing a story. It's thrilling.
This isn't just a set of steps or tips. It's a personal journey. A deep dive into ourselves. It's about pushing our limits, seeing what we're truly made of.
Picture a painter. She steps back, sees the whole picture, then dives back in with a new vision. That's us. We need to step back, see our whole life, then dive back in with new eyes.
We need to look inside. To write our own story. To be the authors of our lives.
Radical Thought Discipline is more than a pursuit; it's an invitation to question, to contemplate, to dive deep into the heart of your own consciousness and resurface with a vision anew, in the most human, and humane way.
I'm no expert. But I've lived. I've felt. And I've learned. I want to share my story. To show the power of looking at things in a new way. The power of not just sifting through hundreds of books, but actually doing the tough work.
In this space, I will delve deeper, exploring tools and techniques to uncover and cultivate this discipline. There is nothing you need to go out and buy or gather. You have everything you need. It's all inside you. But for now, let's just sit. Let's feel the weight of what's to come. Let's let the excitement of discovery wake us up.
This will feel like breaking the shackles of the ordinary and venturing into the extraordinary. A new beginning, not a sprint, but a marathon.
We are in this together, one step, one thought, at a time.
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